about the ruiner post, im sorry to those who read that. i removed the personal remarks
they were un-nesecarry and out of context. they also have no place on here, which i didn't realize was so public. i hope i can mend the bridges that post set aflame. if those who were hurt want to talk to me sooner, please contact me in game.
<3 you all, sorry for hurting any of my readers. we all make mistakes, i'll just make sure to be more careful when posting.
torsdag 31 januari 2008
fredag 25 januari 2008
ruiner
going more in depth, i really need a break, from everyone. if two people spend too much time together, they begin to drift apart. i think thats whats happening to me.
looking back and forth, i realize that i play to meet goals, thats all everything is to me. a goal to be the best (job/sub-job) i can be. drg is close, sam is a ways off, blu and rng are ways off, but after that, theres nothing left.
merits done, gear done, whats left besides exploring places ive already been?
i desperately want to be done with everything. if i could i'd be done today. nothing would be there to bind me.
instead im stuck in a rat race with 500,000 other people doing stuff we dont want for other people until by pure chance its our turn. looking at real life, its the same. e get a job, we make money, spend it on living expenses, waste rsources. for what? so we can go home and entertain ourselves... i'm thinking, and getting depressed because nothings out there in the long run, and nothings in here either.
looking back and forth, i realize that i play to meet goals, thats all everything is to me. a goal to be the best (job/sub-job) i can be. drg is close, sam is a ways off, blu and rng are ways off, but after that, theres nothing left.
merits done, gear done, whats left besides exploring places ive already been?
i desperately want to be done with everything. if i could i'd be done today. nothing would be there to bind me.
instead im stuck in a rat race with 500,000 other people doing stuff we dont want for other people until by pure chance its our turn. looking at real life, its the same. e get a job, we make money, spend it on living expenses, waste rsources. for what? so we can go home and entertain ourselves... i'm thinking, and getting depressed because nothings out there in the long run, and nothings in here either.
torsdag 24 januari 2008
odd week
here is the mod i have for rdm gear
nothin doing much. yesterday i finally cashed in my merits (hello 5/5 sTP) today i recieved my campaign rank up (level 6) and bought a shiny sentinels shield. also finaly got a staff strap for rdm. no word from CoP/sky ls.. oh well, if its meant to be, it'll come in time i guess. i should probly shout tomorrow. hopefully i get swift belt.
my sexy new shield
nothin doing much. yesterday i finally cashed in my merits (hello 5/5 sTP) today i recieved my campaign rank up (level 6) and bought a shiny sentinels shield. also finaly got a staff strap for rdm. no word from CoP/sky ls.. oh well, if its meant to be, it'll come in time i guess. i should probly shout tomorrow. hopefully i get swift belt.
my sexy new shield
tisdag 22 januari 2008
sloow day in the neighborhood
short day today, had to go shopping w/ mom so i got home just in time to do the last assault and some campaign. Xerxes wanted to kiill n nm but we needed like 20 people to kill it so no go. instead we camped the orc king again hoping for a ToD. got some skillups (249 enfeebling 27 from cap) but otherwise not much going on. moms kinda cranky so hittin the sac early, sky tomorrow.. we'll see how that goes..
söndag 20 januari 2008
common reactor
for those of you wondering what i'm talking about when i DC, heres a diagram
what my modem should look like
Power
o
Receive
o
Send
o
Online
o
Activity
o
Stand-by
X
when i DC its this
Power
o
Receive
o __________x o x o x o x o x o
Send
x o x o x o x o x o x x x x x x x x x o x o x o
Online
x
Activity
o
Stand-by
X
just a visual reference.
also if you havent heard the portal song before, its addictive, and the creator of VGcats made a flash version :D
http://www.vgcats.com/comics/extras/stillalive.php
(lyrics)
This was a triumph.
I'm making a note here:
HUGE SUCCESS.
It's hard to overstate
my satisfaction.
Aperture Science
We do what we must
because we can.
For the good of all of us.
Except the ones who are dead.
But there's no sense crying
over every mistake.
You just keep on trying
till you run out of cake.
And the Science gets done.
And you make a neat gun.
For the people who are
still alive.
I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a pyre.
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data
make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm glad I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are
still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think i prefer to stay inside.
maybe you'll find someone else
to help you.
maybe Black Mesa...
THAT WAS A JOKE, HA HA, FAT CHANCE.
Anyway this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist
look at me still talking when theres science to do
when i look out there
it makes me glad I'm not you
i've experiments to run
there is research to be done
on the people who are
still alive.
and believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
i feel fantastic and I'm still alive
while your dying ill be still alive
and when your dead i will be still alive
still alive
still alive
here is the flash version of the game as well
http://portal.wecreatestuff.com/
what my modem should look like
Power
o
Receive
o
Send
o
Online
o
Activity
o
Stand-by
X
when i DC its this
Power
o
Receive
o __________x o x o x o x o x o
Send
x o x o x o x o x o x x x x x x x x x o x o x o
Online
x
Activity
o
Stand-by
X
just a visual reference.
also if you havent heard the portal song before, its addictive, and the creator of VGcats made a flash version :D
http://www.vgcats.com/comics/extras/stillalive.php
(lyrics)
This was a triumph.
I'm making a note here:
HUGE SUCCESS.
It's hard to overstate
my satisfaction.
Aperture Science
We do what we must
because we can.
For the good of all of us.
Except the ones who are dead.
But there's no sense crying
over every mistake.
You just keep on trying
till you run out of cake.
And the Science gets done.
And you make a neat gun.
For the people who are
still alive.
I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a pyre.
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data
make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm glad I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are
still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think i prefer to stay inside.
maybe you'll find someone else
to help you.
maybe Black Mesa...
THAT WAS A JOKE, HA HA, FAT CHANCE.
Anyway this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist
look at me still talking when theres science to do
when i look out there
it makes me glad I'm not you
i've experiments to run
there is research to be done
on the people who are
still alive.
and believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
i feel fantastic and I'm still alive
while your dying ill be still alive
and when your dead i will be still alive
still alive
still alive
here is the flash version of the game as well
http://portal.wecreatestuff.com/
Atomic kitten
so today was SUPPOSED to be an eventful day. it turned out the opposite. (I'm not in a good mood btw as I'm writing this) Today i was SUPPOSED to get my Wyrm hands from Dynamis Jeuno, then go to sky and hopefully get neptunal abjuration from byakko, then leave early and complete the CoP mission Ive been stuck on for 5 months. nope non happened.
here's what did happen.
Dynamis: well i got to jeuno on time, and everything was alright, we burned through the mobs pretty fast with out many deaths, moved to the second camp, and 10 minutes in what should drop? Saotome Kyahn. Ihnako got those, i was semi-unfased because my Wyrm could still drop. well nothing else dropped till we were at the auction house. SAM feet again, but apparently there was a second lot on those... now i'm alittle annoyed.
so next drop is NIN feet, which goes free lot, i got second highest but before they drop, i DC... no intentions of leveling NIN but they would look good on my model when i get they auto-sorted already. connection stayed stable for a bit, and two bard slippers dropped. its ggetting close to the end of the run and what should happen? i DC. for close to 10 minutes, when i get back i notice theres a statue next to me...
Shit...
Final pull was made. so im in the middle of seven statues, and i spawn about 6 gobs, which include 3 summoners. and all 14+3 proceed to march down the stairs and wipe the LS. yes i suicide bombed the LS with a goblin they had at about 3% it took 20 minutes for them to RR and kill it. ended up being down for 45 minutes and receiving R1... now im not so nice. well Dynamis ends and i get ready for Sky.. well then i end up DC again...
so i get back on when connection is stable, Ive missed sky completely. also missed the mission, and the person who invited me had forgot i wanted to join.... now I'm really not happy. and I'm hungry.. I missed the one thing I need to get Sea and ... well you get the picture.
listening to silversun pickups to brighten my mood..
here's what did happen.
Dynamis: well i got to jeuno on time, and everything was alright, we burned through the mobs pretty fast with out many deaths, moved to the second camp, and 10 minutes in what should drop? Saotome Kyahn. Ihnako got those, i was semi-unfased because my Wyrm could still drop. well nothing else dropped till we were at the auction house. SAM feet again, but apparently there was a second lot on those... now i'm alittle annoyed.
so next drop is NIN feet, which goes free lot, i got second highest but before they drop, i DC... no intentions of leveling NIN but they would look good on my model when i get they auto-sorted already. connection stayed stable for a bit, and two bard slippers dropped. its ggetting close to the end of the run and what should happen? i DC. for close to 10 minutes, when i get back i notice theres a statue next to me...
Shit...
Final pull was made. so im in the middle of seven statues, and i spawn about 6 gobs, which include 3 summoners. and all 14+3 proceed to march down the stairs and wipe the LS. yes i suicide bombed the LS with a goblin they had at about 3% it took 20 minutes for them to RR and kill it. ended up being down for 45 minutes and receiving R1... now im not so nice. well Dynamis ends and i get ready for Sky.. well then i end up DC again...
so i get back on when connection is stable, Ive missed sky completely. also missed the mission, and the person who invited me had forgot i wanted to join.... now I'm really not happy. and I'm hungry.. I missed the one thing I need to get Sea and ... well you get the picture.
listening to silversun pickups to brighten my mood..
Long road to ruin
1st real post is a killer.
today was surprisingly eventful. as soon as i got on and got to Rolanberry, i got an invite from Sebion to come merit, figuring a merit pt better than campaign i went and got ready. 1/2 way through, Dark told me he had a PLD. after about 10 minutes instead of meriting on DRG i was putting a pt together for BLU (yaaay!) 30 min later we were killing in Aydeewa.
today marked a turning point in that it was Dark's 1st time mass pulling as bard,, we flew through crawlers for hours until another party showed up. then we started pulling and sleeping everything. needless to say they eventually left so i ended about 8k TNL and dark got 4k behind me, all in all good party and greeat time. i hit some 1k death scissors and dark got to pull so alls good right?
wrong.
Xerxes comes on LS as soon as pt ends Bakgodek is up and hes being help at the zone line.
3-400k for us. so i jumped on RDM and rushed over to Davoi . Dark followed on SMN and we met up in Monastic Cavern. The orc king was smaller than i expected, and not at all as tough as i'd heard. Xerxes and Zipinferno tanked it perfectly, we only had to restart once. second pull we held on the entire way. more people showed up to help, 2 more red mages, the fight went on for about an hour, and then....
well i cant tell you much, i dont have any SS because my computer decided to update at 1% so no kill shot; ; well it was 1:00 AM so that told me next day was gonna suck, it did....
after everyone left, i decided to kill a few orcs for possibly a key and mabe some shield skills. well that ended up being a 2 hour ordeal whhen i ran out of mp. i ran for the door, unknowing that dark who had healed me once was now asleep at the keyboard. so the 5-7 orcs i had zoned came back and hit him like a train... atleast i think thats what happened, i zoned out he was alive, zoned in he was dead. so it took 45 minutes of finding a WHM for to come raise him (didn't want my Raise 1) Rivkkah was kind enough to come help, i had to go to bed because it was 3:00AM and i had dyn~Jeuno in 6 hours. made a connection with a guy shouting for CoP mission 5-3 trying to find help for myself at a later date.
today was surprisingly eventful. as soon as i got on and got to Rolanberry, i got an invite from Sebion to come merit, figuring a merit pt better than campaign i went and got ready. 1/2 way through, Dark told me he had a PLD. after about 10 minutes instead of meriting on DRG i was putting a pt together for BLU (yaaay!) 30 min later we were killing in Aydeewa.
today marked a turning point in that it was Dark's 1st time mass pulling as bard,, we flew through crawlers for hours until another party showed up. then we started pulling and sleeping everything. needless to say they eventually left so i ended about 8k TNL and dark got 4k behind me, all in all good party and greeat time. i hit some 1k death scissors and dark got to pull so alls good right?
wrong.
Xerxes comes on LS as soon as pt ends Bakgodek is up and hes being help at the zone line.
3-400k for us. so i jumped on RDM and rushed over to Davoi . Dark followed on SMN and we met up in Monastic Cavern. The orc king was smaller than i expected, and not at all as tough as i'd heard. Xerxes and Zipinferno tanked it perfectly, we only had to restart once. second pull we held on the entire way. more people showed up to help, 2 more red mages, the fight went on for about an hour, and then....
well i cant tell you much, i dont have any SS because my computer decided to update at 1% so no kill shot; ; well it was 1:00 AM so that told me next day was gonna suck, it did....
after everyone left, i decided to kill a few orcs for possibly a key and mabe some shield skills. well that ended up being a 2 hour ordeal whhen i ran out of mp. i ran for the door, unknowing that dark who had healed me once was now asleep at the keyboard. so the 5-7 orcs i had zoned came back and hit him like a train... atleast i think thats what happened, i zoned out he was alive, zoned in he was dead. so it took 45 minutes of finding a WHM for to come raise him (didn't want my Raise 1) Rivkkah was kind enough to come help, i had to go to bed because it was 3:00AM and i had dyn~Jeuno in 6 hours. made a connection with a guy shouting for CoP mission 5-3 trying to find help for myself at a later date.
lördag 19 januari 2008
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